between grudge and forgiveness

who wants this?

you?

everybody seems doesn't

hye. salam to my readers and bloggers. tonight I want to talk about something that crawled in my mind recently. between grudge and forgiveness, which one you will choose? which one I will choose? people said revenge is sweet. same goes with holding a grudge for too long. what is our point exactly of doing that? to satisfy ourself? most of the answers will be "I can't forgive what he/she had done to me" but it is burden more for us to carry the grudge everywhere.

no one can answer that question. hmm. for me I don't know. people always said "forget and forgive". "it is easy to forgive but not to forget." but not for me. I don't do that. it took me almost a year to forgive what MI had done to me. a year without hesitation. without hatred. without constraint from anybody. finally, I think I am free. free because I am holding a grudge for too long.

to MI:

if you read my blog, still

I already had moved on. I really did. I am happy with my current life, with my guy that obviously can make me happy without pretending I am okay but actually I am not. it took me almost one year to forgive what you did to me. but I cannot forget, yet what you have done. the damages. it took me almost one year to get back my strength and faced the reality after you had gone in my life. it is not easy.

it is.

this is the last time I mentioned your name in my blog. I wish you all the best in your life. hope you will find someone that truly makes you happy. I hope that I will not ever meet you again. even accidentally or just a coincidence. you are not existed any more in life, even just a shadow.

I will not come back to you, one day if you did ask me too. I knew your parent still hoping that... hope that we will get back together in the future. my mom did ask the same question, lately. I will not come back to you. I will keep the rings as your parent asked me to but I will not keep our memories. I managed to leave behind, slowly... and slowly...

you are my scariest nightmare.

yes, you did.

the weak can never forgive

forgiveness is the attitude of the strong

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