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Tuesday, April 19, 2011

siapa yang tak pernah kecewa? itu tipu


RAWR!
it is DOMO-kun
comel kan??
even muka nampak ganas tapi hihi still comel
=D

assalamualaikum kepada bloggers dan readers, stalkers & anonymous. sopan tak pembuka bicara saya hihi? tajuk entry kemain serius lagi. betol lah memang nak serius tapi perenggan keseriusan tak start lagi so ngeh ngeh ngeh kite cite dulu cer cite cer cite =p aok jangan jealous dengan miker. miker dah jumpa Usop Wilcha tauuuuuu tapi huk nak tayang gambo kat kome seme tapi huuuu laptop sudah hantar servis T_________T'' sebab screen sudah menjadi hitam tak nampak dah haaa apekebende yang tertulis di skrin laptopkuw tsk. berapa riban ler akan ku habiskan nanti (--'')

saya sudah tukar off day. dulu kan hari Khamis tapi start bulan April ni dah tukar hari Isnin wahh memang seronok cuti hari Isnin kau tahu? seronok dia sebab orang lain Monday blues tapi saya? hek hek hek menghabiskan masa indah bermimpi di atas katil hua hua hua ;p kalau orang yang bekerja setiap hari blues tu tatau ah nak cakap pe keh keh keh :D hari ini ingat nak breakfast dengan Abg Zul *abg angkat* kat hotel. hotel tuhhhh mana nak dapat makan free? dia turun Kuantan sebab ada meeting pastu trus pergi KL aihhh tak nyempat-nyempat. pastu kan pastu saya bangun kul doblas HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA breakfast dalam mimpi jelaaa kan.

ini semua sebab saya tidur pukul 5pg kot semalam ehe. tulah kau menggatal sangat power nap amik kawwwww takleh tidur langsung sobs. pastu saya pun mandi bersiap-siap keluar rumah dalam pukul 130ptg untuk settlekan hal pos laju and then jumpa customer untuk bagi shawls heeee thank you Cik Shikeen dan Puan Ida sebab sudi membeli shawl di LustFulLuv muahhhhhh!!! amin semoga rezeki saya murah di dalam bisnes jual shawl ni. memang impian nak jual tapi tak terjual sendiri dan apabila ada peluang masuk untuk jadi biz partner, tu yang rembat tuhhh. doakan saya okay ladies ;)

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hmm mari kita masuk ke bab yang lebih serius mius sampai tercabut fius (-_-)'' berbalik kepada tajuk entry kali ini siapa yang tak pernah rasa kecewa? oho kalau korang bagi jawapan tak, alamatnya nampak sangat lah suka tipu diri sendiri supaya nampak happy memanjang dan tak pernah sedih even ada masalah. tu orang gila. erm banyak actually saya nak tulis. lately ni bagi saya tak okay. like I said before, I hated March because I am super duper busy like a bee but then I hated April too :'( too many problems and obstacles I have to face and encounter with. either personal or work, sama je beban yang saya kena tanggung + fikir = stress bersamaan dengan kurus. yerp I am getting thinner btw it is a good news actually =D

saya fikir kan yang saya ni memang malang dalam relationship sebab saya rasa sesiapa yang rapat dengan saya ehem guys okeh secara emotionally mesti tak kekal. dunno why. huuu rasa macam kena curse je kan? I always distance myself when people become emotionally close to me. I really want to do that but hey I don't want to give up so early so yeah I did my best but... they will end up leaving. they always do :'( love is giving someone the ability to destroy your heart, but trusting them not to. I want to believe that but hmmm I am too afraid for giving any chances to amend my heart back. erghhh!!! I hated when it is comes to love because there is no right or wrong. it is just waiting for us to meet the right person to fall in love to. but how come we can be so sure and no insecurities at all that he is the one? that is the risk I am talking about... no one knows. only Allah knows.

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these are my confessions

recently I had this argument. I think maybe this is a typical argument between parent and their children. I mean me and my mom. I had this conversation with her, last 2 weeks maybe in her room. she asked me who is AZ? I am not responding to her question. and then she asked again, who is AZ? and I told her that he is a friend of mine bla bla bla. and then she asked me or a in other way she told me as a *please obey what I am saying or you will be dead soon* please do not too close with him because he was not the same level as you. erk? mom? really??? is this you saying that to me? humm... what are you expect me to say? so from there, we both kept on distance with each other after telling him the truth and until now I am losing him as my friend. now I think he is going back to his ex because his mom told him to do so, so there you go #first evidence

I knew this one guy last August 2010 from Facebook #typical matchmaker haha. actually he was a junior from my bff batch in UM. so he will working as a teacher after he grads. I really enjoyed having him as a friend and all the sudden we get attached emotionally. means there is more than just a friend. a feeling. he is different, maybe. he made me laugh. he always made my day. just like an angel protects someone. I think he likes me too and yes he likes me. the problem is, he is younger than me. one year to be exact. and yes that problem sort of became a nightmare to me at last. he told me that his parent not approved if we are in the relationship just because I am older than him #typical meleis thinker. I am not angry or mad but sad just because of our age, his parent didn't like me. but what can I do to change that? the only way is to keep a distance between us so there was no expectation from both side :'( but now recently we are getting okay and lets hope something from this, obviously to the next level #second evidence is going to the second trial on the next level :D

and the last one is giving me like hell. I think almost one year this problem keep hanging on - don't know when it will be solved. it gets me bored when I am thinking of this matter. I just couldn't understand why his parent didn't want to solve this? hello? am I the only one who concern this? or just my parent? but why not them? their son was really a bastard person. urghhh I hope he dies one day. MI, sorry for the harsh words but this is for you : you-are-the-most-annoyed-jerk-the-best-actor-in-this-world and I-hope-you-die-as-soon-as-possible-because-I-really-hated-you-and-will-not-forgive-you-ever! #unconditionally stabilized emotion =p you don't know how I had to face his parent every time if I accidentally saw them while I am driving. either I want to smile or just ignored them? and how about their reaction? not only his parent but also his siblings. erghhhh I hate to keep thinking of this problem. and what is my reaction when I saw him? when he saw me? only God knows... please lah go away from my life as soon as possible and take back the rings!!! #parent issue evidence

actually there are more I need and want to confess but now it is already 2am in the morning. I have to wake up early tomorrow to settle things about our business and go to the work. I hope you are happy erk happy? hahahaha I hope you are enjoyed by reading my entry from time to time and I will update soon, later. I really missed my laptop for now T__________T''


xoxo



goodnite!

7 COMMENTS:

♥ηαβiLα Lαα♥ said...

sbr ok k.sha. rajen doa kt Allah spaya jodoh dipermudahkan. amin :)

sapphire said...

sha...
patut la lama xdgr cerita pasal dia..sorry to hear..
banyak2 sabar eh..byk2 doa...
insyaAllah..Dia bagi jalannya nanti.. :)

terus2 update blog eh..update pjg2 pun still ada org baca tau... :)

Anonymous said...

as salam..kalu awk post entry yang sedih-sedih di blog ni,ramai yang akan condemn awk..sy dah lama mengikuti blog awk..sy jes nk ckp,sy rasa awk perlu teruskan kedupn.mungkin memng dia bkan jodh awk..dri apa awk crita,dia dh blk pda ex dia..jd mgkin itu jodh dia..awk perlu mghormati keputusan dia dan jalan yang dia plih,awk kna perlu ada rasa mnghormati pmpn yg dia plh..sy prnah rasa apa awk rasa..dan skrng sy bahagia dengn orng baru yang tuhan jdohkan untk sy..ada lelaki lain tercipta untk awk..teruskn kehdupn..doakan yng terbaik untk dia..itu lbih baik dri terus mngharp pda kepunyaan org..maaf kalu sy slah..sy iklas.. :)

Anonymous said...

sy rs awak xpelu bsedih malah awak pttnye b'syukur kerana tlepas dr permainan lelaki tu..mak awak betul.awk xknal sy mane mungkin awak nk percaya saya.tp percayalah awak beruntung sebab cepat tersedar dan mungkin disedarkan mak awak.awak ade master.die hanya sijil..klu sy jd mak awak pn sy xkn benarkan..

Shahira said...

to nabila : thanks darl <3

to kak nilam : heee da almost a year kak. takpe sha ok je. thanks for dropping ur comment. happy newlyweds ^^

hihi saya pun rindu nak update panjang2 pasnih. rindu sgt!

XD

Shahira said...

to 1st anon:

tq for dropping ur comment. life come and go. so did with the ppl. so i think i have to let go or move on onto the next phase/level. it is just my emotion for a while. i'm just a normal person, have my own heart to be amended so this is how i amend my heart; by blogging what i felt towards them ;)

no hearts feeling here.
everything is going back to normal.
just took some times.
I AM OK :)
tq for ur concern dear...

Shahira said...

to 2nd anon:

tq for dropping by ur comment here. yeah it is true i didn't know u. thanks anyway for ur advice ;) somehow anyhow i will forget this; remains as memories & experiences for finding the perfect one to be my husband in the future.

<3